What I do when I'm not doing school.

Work. Errrday! Literally since coming home I didn't work the first week and then started last week and have gotten 30 or so hours each week. I told Trav that I wanted to work doubles 2-3 times a week, well apparently he interpreted that as working every day mostly doubles. =[ I don't mind the money I just wish I had more free time, and where I didn't feel like I lived at JJ's, alas that's what happens when you don't have a life.


I'm going to start touring colleges soon, (as in going to Hamline tomorrow) and hopefully getting a good vibe from one of them! I really want my college experience to be like my sisters(where she loved it!) but I know that that may not be possible, but I'd like to get as close as possible to that!

My friend Jessica and I are going to the SYTYCD Tour on Oct 13th! SO FREAKING EXCITED IT NEEDS TO BE IN CAPS.

And literally that is my life currently. I don't do anything except work, and once in a while hang out with Blake, we have plans to go stargazing "soon" (soon meaning before the first snowfall but not at any determined date right now.)

Man, I'm excited for life right now.

This is good for me

I believe the decision I've made is good for me. This summer I didn't really have a summer, I worked so much I didn't really get to enjoy it, besides the little vacations at the beginning and end of summer. I truly believe that this semester off will be exactly what I needed it'll be the vacation I never had this summer, and I'll figure out what I want to do with life. My one hope with the college searching that will be taking place is that I'll find the place that I belong, my sister went to St. Mary's in Winona and loved it, and I want to find that. I know that it may not happen, but I think when I decided to go to Morris it was just the best of the 3 I toured.

This break has already been good for me. Yesterday I hung out with my friend Blake who I haven't seen in person for a few months, we went to the library and then to coldstone and it was just really nice to not have to worry about anything. Today I have a few errands to run, and I'll probably start researching other colleges more extensively.

Monday I'll start work again, which is okay with me because I love Jimmy John's, more than what I should. I'm hoping to work doubles at least 2-3 times a week, because I know that right now they're really short on drivers/workers in general!
This morning as I woke up I had the thought, "oh man, today's friday which means it's the weekend but after that I'll have to go to school again" and then of course it hit me that I won't be going to school again this semester, and that fact is a little foreign to me, for the first time in 14 years I won't be going to school. But I feel like this is the happiest I've been in a long time.

Doing the right thing

I have to believe I'm doing the right thing right now. As I came back I realized I'm going to miss the people here more than I ever thought I would. Tonight, I had a really good talk with my friends Scott(or affectionately called Scotty) before tonight I thought I would really only miss like 2 people, but it figures that more people are interested in what I think than I thought. However, I'm doing the whole ditching town thing on more than a few people and I can only hope that they won't be mad at me for not telling me, but to be honest, I guess I don't care because they don't care to hang out so why should I care about what they think of my decisions?


And something else completely, some old photos I've been looking at today; being a little nostalgic I guess.



I miss these times so much! Oh for all of us to be in high school again!

Ahhhh, good times! So many good times!

First winter pep band freshman year, I have to say we were the most attractive people in that whole arena!
My best friend!! I love this kid so much!

Post Edit

I've made my decision people!
It's "official" (it actually won't be until at least tomorrow) but I'm transferring and so I'll be dropping out from Morris for this semester and working at home, I truly believe I'm making the right decision here. Two days into being here I wasn't happy, and I guess somewhere in the back of my mind last year I might've known that this place wasn't for me, but I didn't want to make that decision until I was for sure...Well I'm for sure now.

I'm excited for whatever may happen next, I don't know where I'll be going to school now, I just know that I can't stay here, I'm not happy.

I also know that at home people are excited to see me and hang out with me. Since being back here, I have never once been asked if I wanted to hang out with someone. I know I'm a quiet person, and very introverted and I also know that I don't need a lot of friends to be happy but at home I have friends I can talk to at least, whereas here I just have Jessica, which is okay but it's always nice to have more than one friend to talk to!
Sorry that ^this sentence is one very long run-on sentence!



On a completely different note: Last year I gained a few pounds (the much acclaimed freshman 15) while I'm not completely sure if I gained the whole 15 pounds I did gain weight, so this summer I decided I would try and lose that weight. So I started to only eat 2 meals a day, and losing the weight(obviously not all that healthy) and then once I got diagnosed with PCOS and got put on the diabetic diet I lost more weight, since the start of summer I've lost 17 pounds(according to my record.) This weekend while I was at home I tried on a sweater for church and it was the baggiest thing I've ever tried on, and unfortunately it was actually one of my favorite sweaters ever!

So I'm hoping that after I move home I can continue to lose weight and work out too!