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Friends are a funny thing.
Back in high school I thought I was going to be best friends with some of those people but as it turns out it's the complete opposite. I'm now friends with people I never actually imagined I would be friends with outside of high school.

This may sound weird but it's both easy and hard for me to make friends. I'm extremely shy and don't really come out of my shell when I first meet new people. But at the same time, I like to talk to people I find interesting and through that I become friends with them. For example, at school I've made this new friend Robin and pretty much the reason why I originally wanted to be her friend was because she has short hair that she styles into a mohawk, and I thought that was really interesting. But there are also people in my classes who whenever they speak I just shake my head and wonder how they've gotten through life being so mean to everyone they meet.
Once I meet people and talk to them for more than a few minutes it's easy for me to come out of my shell and really get to know them. At school I've actually made more friends than I thought I would, I would say that I have 3 "good friends" and a few more on there way to being more than acquaintances. But 3 is kind of a big number in my world.

But, this post is focusing more on the "old" friends.
The last two years of high school were hard for me. My "original" group of friends kind of banded together and kind of "exiled" me from the group, forcing me to find other friends. So I did just that. I found friends both in and outside of band, and honestly the ones outside of band are the ones I still talk to! Senior year I was best friends with this girl Jayde, and thought it would continue once I went to college, ha! we don't even talk anymore. And then when she sees me around town she always says she misses me and honestly the thought that always goes through my mind is "you have a funny way of showing it." And then I generally stand there awkwardly until a new topic comes up, refusing to say I miss her to, because I don't.
But what really kills me is Rachael, I was literally best friends with her for probably like 9 years and then when I moved to college talking decreased but we still kept in touch but now that she's in college well, boy oh boy, she is just too good for me so now we also don't talk. It's hard after that many years of friendship.

BUT, these two guys below, have been "there" through the last 3 years. We text/talk to each other every so often but that's the thing, we don't need to talk every day to have a good friendship. They're both still in high school, but neither of them act like they are for the most part. So last weekend I had the chance to go to their drumline show over in Buffalo and I was pretty much the happiest girl alive when I was able to see them for an entire afternoon!

Jakey-pie!

Zachy-poo!