Stuck between a rock and a hard place

So as it turns out this whole not knowing what I want to do with life is really troublesome. It's pretty much head vs. heart at this point. My head and the logical part of me says that I should stay here for the semester hopefully do better in my classes and help my GPA a little bit, but my heart is really really yearning for home at this point. I don't really understand what's going on. I've never missed home this much and I don't really know what's happened, whether it's because I spent a fair amount of time with my parents this summer or whether it's because I've started to realize who people are here. As in the people I thought were my friends last year, definitely don't seem to be the same people this year/got into some things that I definitely don't like this summer.
I'm stuck in that place where I feel like in order for me to be happy, I need to follow my heart, but I also feel like it's sensible for me to stay here and try and be happy, but it's not something you can force. To be honest here, the only time I feel happy is when I'm hanging out with friends.

I also have to say that I'm not really all that happy with my classes this semester, the only one I truly like is Archeology(but that might be because my adviser is the professor) otherwise, the other two are filling gen ed's and while I need to have these to graduate I just feel really defeated. Archeology is also one of the times I feel happy to be back here, because two of my friends are in the class with me, and it's just nice to see them at a consistent rate.

I'm going home this weekend to talk all this out with my parents but I feel like this week has been the longest week of my life, and that I can't wait for the weekend so I can see them!

I've also been looking at other colleges and not a lot of colleges have Anthropology as a major, but now I've been thinking about maybe I want to be a history major and work in a museum but you can also do that with an Anthropology degree, so really it comes down to what I want to do with my life, but of course I don't actually know what I want to do with my life. And everyone tells you that at 19 you don't need to know what you want to do, but I feel like in order for me not to waste money and in order to finish college at a decent time I do need to know and soon. Within looking at other colleges I've also been thinking that maybe I should live at home and a)save on expenses and b) I won't be able to get homesick then.


And because most of my posts have been all words lately here's a picture for you:






I found this quote on the internet a few days ago, and I feel like I need to live by these words but it's hard to do right now.